this pain in me
won’t let me be still
I am wading through waters now
deep waters
muddy and troubled
the weight of ravished worlds
cling to my heels
slowing me the way molasses would
or shit
and there is water everywhere
water in my eyes
and water in my hands
so much fucking water
I can’t breathe
I’m trying
I am floating on waters now
capsized wreckage to be plundered
betrayed my own tears
again tonight
trying not to drown
again tonight
gasping for peace
to keep me in the land of the living
again tonight
-cd